jbwife: Jeannie & James' TTC Story
Friday, July 11, 2008 10:59 AM
"I was not prepared for the roller coaster ride we got on when we decided to try for our own little baby..."
James and I have been together for eight years, meeting just after high school graduation through friends. Though we were young, we fell in love instantly. After about a month of dating, one of our friends looked at us and told us he knew we were going to get married. We had to laugh because the way he said it was just to matter-of-fact, but at that moment I knew he was right. Six years later on August 19, 2006, we were married.
Just after our one year anniversary, we began talking about starting our family. Our first conversation was a result of finding out our close friends were pregnant. Even though I was extremely happy for them, I felt slightly disappointed that it wasn't us. It was also so strange to feel that way because I hadn't really thought about us having kids yet. That night we had the discussion that would change our lives. We started trying to conceive in November of 2007.
I was not prepared for the roller coaster ride we got on when we decided to try for our own little baby. It seems like around every twist of hope, there is a turn of disappointment. Some months are easier than others, but I have to admit that it breaks a little piece of my heart each month when I have to tell James that it just didn't happen for us. Despite all of the hurt, anger, and disappointment I've felt, I still have to be thankful. God has blessed our marriage in so many ways and He's been with us through this whole process. When I'm feeling the hurt, He comforts me. When I'm angry, He fills my heart with peace. When I'm disappointed, He makes me hopeful. I've learned learned through this journey that more than anything in this world I want to be a mother and I believe with all of my heart that we will be blessed with a little baby of our own. I'm so excited for the day I see those two beautiful pink lines and know our dream has come true.
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