Jenkinsp31's TTC Story
Monday, April 05, 2010 4:22 PM
"My message to other women? Wait patiently and you will receive what your heart desires the most..."
Love at First Sight
My husband and I have been married now for a year and a half now. Our love story began with a simple visit to our local drugstore in Atlanta, Georgia. We just happened to bump into each other -- it was love at first sight. We dated for four and a half years before we got married July 18, 2008.
About 2 months after being married, we decided to start our journey of trying to conceive. At the beginning of January 2009, I began keeping a record of my cycle, purchasing ovulation kits, keeping track of my temperature, taking Geritol (on the advice of friends), and taking fertility pills. But nothing ever happened. In April 2009, while in Ft. Walton Beach, Florida, I decided to take a walk to a local mall. And on my way there, I started to pray: "God, my prayer is that when the time is right, that you would bless me with a healthy, beautiful and smart daughter with a knowledge of You at an early age.” I asked that He send me an angel and also the name.
A Baby Name
A month later I was in Tr-Cities, Tn. I was spending some time with God, when he revealed to me the name Gabriel. I pondered the name over and over again in my head. When I got home I looked up Gabriel in the bible. His name was the first under the Gs in the bible's concordance. His name meant “An Angel of High Rank.” And that’s exactly what I had asked for – an angel.
A few days later, I asked God for a sign. Turns out, you really do have to be careful what you ask for – every day since May 17, I have seen the name Gabriel, Gabriela, or Gabrielle nonstop. On my journey to conceive, I had to have several tests – and my husband has, too. And even though they all came back OK, we still hadn’t conceived.
Eyes on the Future
In January 2009, I began to read about the HSG test. I had all the facts and researched online for any information I could find on the procedure. After 11 months, my husband and I finally decided to go forward to take the test. I had taken all the medication I could for the pain that I would endure. But, unfortunately, my cervix was closed and they were unable to perform the procedure. I was devastated.
I went back to my doctor for the next step: a dilation of my cervix in his office. Then it was back to the hospital for the HSG procedure. I don't know the results yet, but I'm hoping that all is well. And if it is, my only step is to wait patiently for what God has in store for me. My message to other women? Wait patiently and you will receive what your heart desires the most. Even in the midst of me waiting, I have been consumed and sometimes even discouraged about the process. But I know that when the time is right I will welcome a Gabriel, Gabriela, or Gabrielle into the world.