we were both on the april2013 board...I am so sorry to see you on this board.
I lost my baby girl the week of thanksgiving when she was 19 weeks...it was totally unexpected (we found out a week earlier that we would lose her) . I know exactly the pain you are feeling and remember those first days of just utter shock...i still felt kicks, i would hesitate before drinking a glass of wine or eating sushi, I would find myself rubbing my belly. It just doesn't seem fair to be so "in the clear (aka past 13 weeks) and then have your life turned upside down.
It is still a shock and I am still so so heartbroken and have probably cried everyday since, but please know that it does get better a little bit at a time. You will start to feel a peace and clarity and even thankfulness for the time you got with those sweet little boys in your tummy.
these boards have been such a comfort to me because it is so hard for people in your life to relate to what is happening to you..even your dh.
we are all here for you...sending many thoughts and prayers your way.