yes, that's me.
happy, healthy, beautiful 2 year old... then very early natural miscarriage in september, followed by an ectopic pregnancy that was discovered at 8 weeks and removed about 2 weeks ago.
does it suck? yes. do i wonder why it happened twice in one season? yup, totally. do i let my mind play mean what-if games? absolutely.
so when i push away all the crap and the scary thoughts, i'm left with this: i want to be pregnant again. i want it more than i want to feel safe, and so i journey out into these uncertain TTC waters again, knowing that what has happened is now part of my story... and i just take a deep breath and go on, feeling scared and hopeful and unsure and focused on my end goal.
i'm so sorry you lost your baby. i hope your next pregnancy is filled with nothing but joy and health <3