I'm so sorry that you lost one of your little boys. I'll be thinking of and praying for little Brayden. When I was 18, I gave birth to my son at only 24 weeks and 3 days gestation. He weighed 1 pound 8 ounces and was 13 inches long. He stayed in the NICU for four very long months...but he is now 6 years old, and has outgrown all of his medical problems. He has done better than any of his doctors ever thought he could do, and it's truly amazing to watch him every day. Some days in the NICU are very tough - find support when you need it, don't feel bad about asking for help or company. The NICU is full of lows, but also many highs. For me, everything was much more precious - the first cry, the first diaper change, the first time he was able to drink from a bottle...the list goes on and on. Good luck with everything. I'll be thinking of you.