Your feelings towards pregnancy have zero to do with how much you want a baby. It's okay to struggle to get pregnant, and then hate every single moment of it. I wish I could just lay an egg and be done with it, or better yet, a stork could magically drop off my baby. Many women love pregnancy, but I'm not one of them. I'm not me when I'm pregnant. I'm some crabby forgetful lady that constantly aches. Yeah, it is par for the course and totally worth it for the baby in the end, but you *** and complain all you want, because it really is hard. Just because something is natural, doesn't mean our bodies agree with it and feel all organic and great.
It will get better - after you have the baby. I promise you will not hurt like this for the rest of your life. Your body will go back to normal, or normal enough. Every woman's recovery time is different. I felt awesome as soon as I woke up from my post labor nap. Other women take longer, but I promise, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and you're in the home stretch.