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11-15-2012 at 7:50 PM
jamiemae57
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Emotional Day

I read your guys' post and you guys sound so positive. I found out yesterday that my best friend is 6 weeks pregnant. It is hard for me to be supportive to her, since she wasn't even trying to get pregnant. And then today I got on FB and found out that one of my childhood friend is pregnant too. It is so hard to be supportive when my husband and I are struggling. I know that many of you have been trying for alot longer than we have and I applaud you for staying so positive. I am worried that I won't ovulate with this round of clomid. So I stop thinking about it? It just seems that every where I look there are pregnant women. I just want to cry. My DH is so sweet he tells me not to worry and that it will happen for us. Just feeling horrible right now.
 
11-15-2012 at 8:34 PM
Laurakat81
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(((hugs)))) This road sucks, that's for sure. I think we can all relate to those mixed emotions regarding pregnancy announcements, you're not alone!
11-15-2012 at 10:54 PM
chucktgirl
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I know. I'm so sorry. I have never seen as many infants as I have since being diagnosed IF. :(


My (old) BLOG: www.ivfbabyquest.wordpress.com
TTC since Jan 2010 with OPKs. Me: 41, Hypothyroidism, hetero MTHFR C677T, hetero Factor V Leiden (no previous clots) Dx: DOR due to AMA. Rx: 100mg Levothyroxin, FaBB tab, Spring Valley Prenatal Vitamins, Vitamin D. Hubby: 34, Hyperthyroidism, Fragile X carrier, Great swimmers!
Natural PG 9/27/11; MC at 8wks. Used Cytotec to expel: 1/20/12 (unpleasant)
First RE visit: 8/8/12, Saline Sonogram: 8/28/12(4cm unknown mass in upper left of uterus) 2nd Saline Sonogram: 10/2/12 (mass disappeared!) IVF injection class: 10/11/12
IVF #1: 10/17/12 Baseline: FSH- 9.4, E2- 24, LH- 3.7, Progesterone- 0.3. 6 follicles in my right ovary & 9 in my left. Rx: 150 Bravelle & 150 Menopur SQ in AM. 10/21/12: Add Ganirelix SQ in PM. 10/26/12: hCG Trigger IM. ER 10/28/12: 13R, 7M, 6F. 5 Made it to PGS. ET 11/2/12: CANCELED. PGS: All 5 have "severe abnormalities." Devastated. Begged RE for back-to-back IVFs; Started Provera 11/2/12. AF said FU and came anyway, destroying any chance for a Dec IVF. Maxed out lifetime IF meds insurance. I can barely breathe, waiting to get through this process, hoping for my take-home-baby.
IVF #2: 1/7/13 Baseline: FSH- 8.8, 4 follicles in my right ovary & 6 in my left. Rx: 150 Bravelle & 150 Menopur SQ in PM. 1/11/13: Add Ganirelix SQ in AM. 1/16/13: hCG Trigger IM. ER 1/18/13: 9R, 5M, 5F. 2 Made it to PGS. ET 1/23/13: CANCELED. PGS: All embryos have "multiple severe abnormalities." RE recommends we stop trying and focus on living childless, due to the repeated extremely poor quality of my eggs. I don't even know what to do with that.
IVF #3- NEW RE! 100% OOP: 3/1/13 Baseline: FSH- 9.6, E2- 61, Progesterone- 0.94, 3 follicles in my right ovary & 4 in my left. Rx: 150 Bravelle & 150 Menopur SQ in PM. 3/7/13: Add Ganirelix SQ in AM. hCG Trigger 3/9/13 SQ. 3/11/13 ER: 6R, 2M, 2F. Day 3: one 8 cell, grade 0. 3/16/13 Five day ET: one early blast, grade Fair. 3/24/13 Started period a day before beta. BFN.
IVF #4 (FINAL) (Added acupuncture to this cycle.): 3/25/13 WTF & Baseline: FSH-11.8, E2- 56, Progesterone- 0.84 3/26/13 Start stims. 3/30/13 u/s: 5 follicles in my right ovary & 4 in my left. Rx: 225 Bravelle & 225 Menopur SQ in PM. 3/31/13 Add Ganirelix SQ in AM. hCG Trigger 4/3/13 SQ. 4/5/13 ER: 5R, 3M, 3F naturally. Day 3: two 8 cell, grade 0, one 8 cell, grade 2 (Scale 0-best to 3-worst). 4/10/13 Five day ET: two blastocysts (the 3rd stopped growing.) 4/18/13 Beta: 2.5 BFFN.
No DE or adoption for us, FIRM.
That’s it for us. I am beyond devastated and have no idea how to proceed from here. My life has been forever altered by this experience. Best wishes to all in their journeys! 
11-16-2012 at 7:49 AM
Shea202
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We all try to stay positive but i feel your pain.  We have a handful of pregnant women at work and one of them is my friend.  It's really hard to hear "Oh wow, we weren't even trying".  They say "it's in the water".  I think to my self Obviously not or i would be too....

It's ok to feel this way, just remember it will happen and we are all here for you.  It may just take a little longer, but the end result will be that much sweeter.  Good Luck to you! 

 
11-16-2012 at 8:25 AM
rrdiva1
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Giving huge ((((hugs))) it is such a hard road. We all have had that moment of bittersweet excited and thrilled for our friends, but wishing why can't we be pregnant also. Hang in there!!!!

Married BF 6/29/2002/ TTC Since Aug 2011/ ME:34 all clear/DH:41 DX Severe MFI/ IVF w/ICSI OCT 2012 Stims started 10/8/ER 10/19/12/ET 10/24/Beta#1 11/2=BFN (beta was 1.2) IVF 2.0-Baseline 11/7/12 beta 0/All Clear Stim start 11/7/12//ER 11/19 11M//10F ET 2 embies 11/24//Beta#1 28 Beta #2 23 Beta#3 29 stop meds Beta#4 37/C/P 5W5D EDD:8/12/13/IVF#3 in Jan Antagonist protacol again Everyone welcome!! My Chart//> Image and video hosting by TinyPic
 
11-16-2012 at 1:26 PM
ksfrye
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I'm sorry that you're going through this.  I have had MANY friends "accidentally" get pregnant and it's so frustrating.  We're here for you and we understand.  ((Hugs))

Happily married Since May 2008. TTC#1 Since May 2010.
Me: 29, Mild DOR
DH: 31, SE mostly normal, 1st SE morph 5%, 2nd SE morph 15%...yeah!.
BFP July 2011, Natural MC August 2011.
3 cycles of 50mg Clomid = BFN
*New RE* Feb/Mar 2012 100 mg Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN
*3rd RE* April-June -Break Cycles begin prep for IVF by doing 2 Heparin injects daily....fun fun!
IVF #1 - ER 7/19, ET 7/24, 2 beautiful embies transferred. Beta 8/2 = BFN
*New RE...yes again* FET Nov 2012 with our lone ranger = BFFN
RE Suggests Trying IUI Again, Jan. 2013 IUI #2 =BFN
Feb. 2013 IUI #3 = BFP!!!, Beta #1 (15dpIUI) = 90, Beta #2 (17dpIUI) = 210, U/S Scheduled for 3/18
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11-16-2012 at 10:43 PM
jamiemae57
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Thank you guys so much. You all are my inspiration to stay positive. 
 
11-17-2012 at 5:31 PM
sarahjanes...
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I'm sorry you had a bad day. I can't tell you how many times I burst into tears while trying to carry on with my day. Some days are easier than others. Lately I have been trying to stay positive by listening to others around me who have also struggled with infertility. Once I started sharing my struggles with others I realized that so many women around me have also had their long battle with infertility. Many of these women now have their babies! So, now when I see a pregnant woman, instead of immediately feeling resentful I imagine that she may have struggled the same way the rest of us have. It makes me feel better and gives me hope. That said, allowing yourself to cry and feel those emotions when they arise is normal and healthy. Feel what you're feeling and carry on with your day.

Sarah Jane Shain 
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