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11-18-2012 at 6:16 PM
CNYBride05
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Feeling pessimistic - gotta shake it off!!

Hi ladies,

Just had ER this morning and have this awful pit in my stomach that this is all for nothing.  I know it's illogical, but it's making me feel awful.  Any tips for how to shake it?  I'll listen to Circle and Bloom in a bit.  I'm just feeling so blue right now and I'd been so optimistic 'til today.

TIA 
Natural m/c Oct. 2005
Dx: balanced translocation and LPD
TTC since Oct 2011
BPF 02/19/12 ----> EDD 10/31/12 ----> natural m/c 02/28/12 (4w6d)
IVF (BCPs starting 10/30/12, ER 11/18/12, 5dt of 1 beautiful, healthy embryo 11/23/12) ----> BFP 12/02/12 ----> Double rainbow, identical twins <3
 
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11-18-2012 at 6:21 PM
Ironmom2be
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((hugs)) Shake it off, it's all out of your control now. So happy for your nine eggies and really hoping for great fert news tomorrow, I can't wait to hear. FX for you my friend.
BFP 2/14/11, missed m/c 9 weeks. d&e 3/24/11
BFP 12/10/11 d&e at 13wk+4days 2/17/12
Dx with Balanced Robertsonian Translocation (13;14) moving on to IVF w/ PGD
IVF #1 (May 2012) 13R, 10F, 5 blasts, ONE NORMAL frozen no transfer
IVF #2 (July 2012) 17R, 8F, 5 blasts, ONE NORMAL 6dt on 7/12/2012- c/p
IVF #3 (Sept. 2012) 39R, 25F, 13 blasts, 3 NORMALS! Freeze-all due to high E2.
FET #1 10/23- 2 expanded blasts, Beta #1 11/1- 113, Beta #2 11/4-351, Beta #3 11/7- 1213
u/s on 11/20 6wk+5d showed a healthy lil' sockmonkey with a heartbeat of 136bpm
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11-18-2012 at 6:28 PM
CNYBride05
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Ironmom2be:
((hugs)) Shake it off, it's all out of your control now. So happy for your nine eggies and really hoping for great fert news tomorrow, I can't wait to hear. FX for you my friend.

Thank you sweetie.  It comes in waves.  I don't want to jinx myself with negativity.  I also don't want to be delusional.  Deep breaths and remembering my "one day at a time" mantra..... 
Natural m/c Oct. 2005
Dx: balanced translocation and LPD
TTC since Oct 2011
BPF 02/19/12 ----> EDD 10/31/12 ----> natural m/c 02/28/12 (4w6d)
IVF (BCPs starting 10/30/12, ER 11/18/12, 5dt of 1 beautiful, healthy embryo 11/23/12) ----> BFP 12/02/12 ----> Double rainbow, identical twins <3
 
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11-18-2012 at 6:29 PM
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So sorry you are having a rough day. IF is a roller coaster of emotions for sure, but try your best to keep your eye on the prize--9 is still great! I am keeping my FX for your fert report tomorrow and that you get some good news to help you feel better!
TTC since June 2011
DX: DH (30) severe MFI, severely low count & low motility
Me (32): all clear
Appt with Urologist 5/21/12: exam, ultrasound, bloodwork all normal.
Testicular Biopsy with TESE on 6/8/12. good sperm found! (left side only) froze sperm, failed thaw test :(
Orientation for IVF/ICSI on 6/13/12. Waiting for the green light following biopsy results...results show adequate sperm production both sides.
2nd SA 6/18/12: sample is "adequate for ICSI"
Plan: IVF/ICSI July 2012!
ER: 7/26/12. 15 eggs retrieved, all mature.
TESE/TESA/aspiration from epididymis, no motile sperm found :(
froze all eggs, the saga of praying for good sperm continues.
8/3/12: 2nd opinion from MFI uro on biopsy slides. Suspects "partial late maturation arrest."
Plan: more SAs, third biopsy/TESE with frozen back-up either from DH or DS.
SA 8/17/12: Zero sperm
SA 8/23/12: Zero sperm
9/26/12: SPERM FOUND! 15 eggs thawed, 12 survived and were ICSI'd, only 3 fertilized normally. Refrozen as embies and will thaw in Nov. Please survive and grow!
All 3 survived the thaw on 11/15/12!
FET 11/17/12: transferred 2, one 4B, one 4C. Beta 11/30:BFFN
moving on to DS
DIUI#1 2/18/13,50mg Clomid cd 3-7, Ovidrel trigger, Beta 3/4/13: BFN.
DIUI#2 3/19/13, 50 mg Clomid cd 3-7, Ovidrel trigger, Beta #1 (14dpiui) 4/2/13: BFP!!!! 150. Beta #2 4/4/13: 420 Beta #3 4/8/13: 2691. Beta #4 4/15/13: 15,086
1st u/s 4/8/13 shows one gestational sac
2nd u/s 4/15/13 shows yolk sac, fetal pole and early heartbeat
3rd u/s 4/25/13: measuring right on track. Heart rate 148 bpm
PAIF & SAIF always welcome
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11-18-2012 at 6:36 PM
firesiren
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It's a protection mechanism.  Hang in there, it's gonna be a long two weeks.  The hormones don't help either.  BIG ((HUGS))     

Stay Busy!  Pinterest is my busy little site.

This is fun!!!  http://surisburnbook.tumblr.com/

 I like this :)   icanhascheezburger.com

AND.... http://failblog.cheezburger.com/

Stuff to keep your mind off of IF. And stay off Dr. Google :) 
Me; 35 DH 32 TTC for over 2 years First mini-IVF Sept 2011... Only 1 egg! ... BFN Switching RE IVF#2 May 2012 9 eggs and only 2 sperm, WTH! BFN IVF#3 Chemical... FML. 2 frosties. SAIF/PAIF ALWAYS WELCOME!!!!!
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11-18-2012 at 6:40 PM
CNYBride05
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firesiren:

It's a protection mechanism.  Hang in there, it's gonna be a long two weeks.  The hormones don't help either.  BIG ((HUGS))     

Stay Busy!  Pinterest is my busy little site.

This is fun!!!  http://surisburnbook.tumblr.com/

 I like this :)   icanhascheezburger.com

AND.... http://failblog.cheezburger.com/

Stuff to keep your mind off of IF. And stay off Dr. Google :) 

Amazing :-)  Thank you!  I do love Pinterest and Facebook.  I think sitting on the couch all day (plus the past week of no exercise and the upcoming 2 with no exercise....) has made the sads sadder.  It IS going to be a long 2 weeks, so I really appreciate the ((hugs)) and tips! 
Natural m/c Oct. 2005
Dx: balanced translocation and LPD
TTC since Oct 2011
BPF 02/19/12 ----> EDD 10/31/12 ----> natural m/c 02/28/12 (4w6d)
IVF (BCPs starting 10/30/12, ER 11/18/12, 5dt of 1 beautiful, healthy embryo 11/23/12) ----> BFP 12/02/12 ----> Double rainbow, identical twins <3
 
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11-18-2012 at 6:52 PM
Ironmom2be
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Hang in there!! You're doing great, try to stay busy!
BFP 2/14/11, missed m/c 9 weeks. d&e 3/24/11
BFP 12/10/11 d&e at 13wk+4days 2/17/12
Dx with Balanced Robertsonian Translocation (13;14) moving on to IVF w/ PGD
IVF #1 (May 2012) 13R, 10F, 5 blasts, ONE NORMAL frozen no transfer
IVF #2 (July 2012) 17R, 8F, 5 blasts, ONE NORMAL 6dt on 7/12/2012- c/p
IVF #3 (Sept. 2012) 39R, 25F, 13 blasts, 3 NORMALS! Freeze-all due to high E2.
FET #1 10/23- 2 expanded blasts, Beta #1 11/1- 113, Beta #2 11/4-351, Beta #3 11/7- 1213
u/s on 11/20 6wk+5d showed a healthy lil' sockmonkey with a heartbeat of 136bpm
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11-18-2012 at 7:50 PM
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It's completely normal. It's impossible to go through all of this and not have moments of freaking out about all of the what if's.

I've been through several cycles and I need to spoil myself to get through it. I make special dinners, buy lots of celebrity gossip magazines, go for a drive and get a seasonal decaf drink from Starbucks. I pamper myself with new bodywash and lotions, get manicures pedicures. Anything you can think of to comfort yourself.

I'm sure you'll be sore, but try to get out of the house and do some nice things for yourself... After ET you will probably want to hang out on the couch for a day or 2 so try to get out and enjoy time out before then.

I always feel that after retrieval to transfer is the hardest part for me. Take care of yourself!
Me (31) DOR/ MH (34) azoo/high DFI TTC#1 since 2009 IVF #1 cancelled dt poor response/ IVF #2 & #3: BFFN/ Natural Surprise BFP, early m/c -endometrial bx & methotrexate administered/ IVF#4:nothing to transfer/ DS IUI#1 BFN/ DS IUI#2 BFN/ IVF#5 (1st w/ DS):another BFFN/ Currently planning on DE and DS cycle Summer 2013. This has to be it- 
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11-18-2012 at 8:09 PM
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firesiren:

It's a protection mechanism.  Hang in there, it's gonna be a long two weeks.  The hormones don't help either.  BIG ((HUGS))     

Stay Busy!  Pinterest is my busy little site.

This is fun!!!  http://surisburnbook.tumblr.com/

 I like this :)   icanhascheezburger.com

AND.... http://failblog.cheezburger.com/

Stuff to keep your mind off of IF. And stay off Dr. Google :) 

 

OMG, yes , THIS!!
Anniversary
Me(31): Possibly Adult Growth Hormone Deficiency caused by a mutation in my pituitary genes called PIT-1--Also, Factor V Leiden
DH (31): Borderline low morph, but not considered a problem
"Baby dancing" with no protection or BCP since July 2009
IF testing started March 2011
Endocrinology related tests from October 2011-February 2012
March 2012--Clomid --No response-Straight to injects!
April & May 2012-- IUI#1 & #2 = BFN
July 2012- IVF#1 cancelled
September 2012-IVF#1.2--BFN
November 2012- IVF #2 --BFN
January 2013- IVF #3-- BFFN
February 2013--Found a new RE but first back to the Endocrinologist for more diagnostic testing
Absolutely no idea when we can cycle again...looking into DE as well if IVF#4 fails again
PAIF/SAIF encouraged...give me some hope!!
For detailed cycle info. see right side of blog... Kate's IF Blog
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11-19-2012 at 1:12 AM
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*big huge squishy hugs*

You can do it!!  I have absolutely everything crossed for you! <3

 
♥ TTC #1 since 1/11 ♥
BFP #1 8/21/11 - EDD 5/1/12 - M/C 9/25/11 ♥ BFP #2 11/17/11 - EDD 8/1/12 - C/P 11/20/11
DH (36) SA = mediocre ♥ Me (30) Low AMH/DOR, Septate Uterus (repaired via Hysteroscopy)
IUI #1-3 7/12-9/12 = 3 BFNs IVF #1 11/12 = BFFN :(
IUI #4 + Injects 1/13 = BFN :( IUI #5 + Injects - cancelled due to cyst
♥ BFP #3 - 3/9/13 ♥ EDD 11/21/13 ♥ Break cycle miracle! ♥ Stick baby, stick! ♥
Congrats BFPB HuskyMomma94, David arrived 4/26/12! ♥ Luck and love BFPB siple1am!!
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11-19-2012 at 6:32 AM
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RequiresExalted:
big huge squishy hugsYou can do it!! nbsp;I have absolutely everything crossed for you! lt;3nbsp;


Thank you my dear!! Mobile Bump or this would be full of hugs and emoticons.
Natural m/c Oct. 2005
Dx: balanced translocation and LPD
TTC since Oct 2011
BPF 02/19/12 ----> EDD 10/31/12 ----> natural m/c 02/28/12 (4w6d)
IVF (BCPs starting 10/30/12, ER 11/18/12, 5dt of 1 beautiful, healthy embryo 11/23/12) ----> BFP 12/02/12 ----> Double rainbow, identical twins <3
 
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