I am so sorry for your loss.
I am totally a pee in the shower person and completely unashamed about admitting it. In fact, in my family, we pee on our feet to cure athlete's foot—no joke! This is what my grandmother and her brothers were told to do by their parents/grandparents while they were growing up in poverty, and barefoot, in the backwoods of Minnesota. It actually works!
Welcome back, op, and good luck to you!