2 IVFs and 3 FETs down- two losses. The last one especially brutal.
We were going to be child free after our last transfer if it didn't work. We were both mentally exhausted and feeling less and less certain that any treatments could result in a baby. Then we got pregnant. And carried into the second trimester. Felt the baby move. Had a couple of months to fall in love with a baby we never brought home. And we don't seem to be willing to just stop here.
I want to do one more retrieval. Which, if its anything like the last two, would result in about 3 more transfer opportunities. We've been at this for four years come January though (3 years with a diagnosis) and its emotionally brutal. I'm not going to lie. There's no spacing that can prevent the emotional exhaustion... And there's no spacing that can make repeat losses tolerable. But I can't seem to give up after getting so close once... So I guess it's bearable.