You are so not alone. When my husband and I got pregnant last year we were so very excited, it was our first pregnancy, first baby, we've been together 8 years, married for 3 and were TTC for 6 months. We starting buying baby stuff, told our family, I would fall asleep at night with my hands over my belly dreaming about the days and weeks to come.
At my first ultrasound at 11 weeks, turns out I had an arrested (missed) miscarriage and the baby had stopped developing at week 6 and my body just wouldn't pass it. For 5 weeks I dreamed about our child, decorated the nursery, bought clothes etc. all the while the baby was not alive :( So devastating. I had to get a D&C and deal with telling everyone the horrible news.
So after another YEAR of trying, we are pregnant again and all I can do is worry. Is everything going ok? Is baby progressing? Am I going to lose this one again? Have I had another arrested miscarriage again and won't know for weeks and weeks??
I can't get excited, just worrying all the time. I truely can't help it.
We haven't shared the news with anyone yet and I'm 9 weeks, and have seen the heartbeat, but still don't feel in the clear at all ...