I cannot believe what I just read here. I came here for support as a last ditch effort to find the advice I really need and I am getting bullied and made fun of by fellow women instead of finding compassion and understanding. You create a new post to make fun of me and call me a liar, I feel like I am in junior high again and just found a note someone wrote behind my back. I never expected that from this site. I genuinely thought I would find some people who could give me advice, suggestions, and support, even if they can't relate exactly or even agree on my stance. EVERY SINGLE OUNCE OF IT IS TRUE and I could add a hundred more posts of all of the HORRENDOUS drama I have been subjected to. I did nothing, NOTHING, to bring it on, and I certainly do not deserve it. Just because it hasn't happened to you, or just because you have not been put through this level of malice, does not mean it isn't someone else's reality. To me what is really twisted, is that there are people on here that have the mindset to think someone would actually make this up!?!?! Maybe it is my naivety again, new to this whole world, but really? People actually do that?
Also, for whoever said I made up my child. SHAME on you. I wish it was not real. I wish I didn't labor for 18 hours knowing my child was going to die. I wish I didn't almost die as a result myself. I wish I didn't have to greet friends and family who came to see me in the hospital with a DEAD infant in my arms instead of a healthy baby boy. I wish I never had to go pick out flowers to put on my son's casket. I wish I didn't have to take baby doll clothes to dress him so he could be buried in something other than a blanket. I wish I didn't have to decide what songs to have played at his funeral (Somewhere Over the Rainbow and Baby Mine). I wish I didn't have to sit and listen to my sister read The Littlest Snowdrop at his funeral. I wish I didn't have to bury my son beside my father. I wish I didn't have to buy decor for his grave instead of decor for his nursery. I wish I didn't have only a few pictures to remember him by. I wish I didn't have a den full of plants to take care of that were sent to his funeral, when I should be here taking care of my son instead. I wish all kinds of things, but none of it will change what happened to us and nothing will bring him back, and for you to question his existence hurt me to the bone and I don't even know u.
I would give anything if my SS was not BM's son. He might stand half a chance. He is not my son though, and I don't believe for one second that there are not other SM's here that don't have a good relationship with their stepchildren and/or BM's. It is not ideal, it is not right, but it is what it is and I can't believe that a group of women, unless they are BM's and not SM's would lash out like you have. I have not said one time that I am ok with any of it or that I feel ok with things remaining as they are. I want healing, I want a normal life, I want acceptance, I want him to get better, and I came here thinking if I reached out maybe I would find some solutions.
Not one single part of my post is fake, nor does it make me crazy. It makes my life seem crazy, and what would BE crazy would be not trying to deal with it or address it or seek help. I am sorry if the details of my situation are too hard for you to grasp or sympathize with, and I hope someday my life will be as wonderful as yours must be to be so judge mental and holier than thou. One thing I do know for certain, if I ever do get through this, I would NEVER make someone else who is lost and suffering feel like crap when all they needed was some understanding.