I'm wondering if I have PPD although I don't have thoughts of harming my baby - it's the opposite - I'm obsessed with his well-being and have constant fears about him getting sick/constipated etc. I also have strong thoughts of self-loathing/hatred b/c I've failed at breastfeeding and I feel like I've failed my LO. I cry on and off, especially when I'm feeding LO and I feel like I have to work so hard to hide it.
Would this be PPD or something else? Anxiety? My OB is aware that I've been depressed but so far has not suggested that I seek any help. I will probably bring it up again when I see him to see if he suggests I see someone.