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12-21-2012 at 9:44 AM
BzeetyD
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hey hey

Hey it's me.

Sorry to go missing on you - I was just very busy and not in a "bumpy" vibe.

Nothing new here - just getting ready for our trip to Denver for our one day work up with CCRM. My favorite aunt and uncle are there and we're set to stay with them.

I have days going back and forth on my emotions lately. Feeling hopeful and excited then feeling more grounded and practical then feeling pessimistic and Eeyore-ish. I'm trying to get my head on right and understand that the path I imagined for so long might not be the path that leads us to our child(ren). Trying to come to the acceptance of that with a very open heart and mind.

Hope everyone is well.

BzeetyD = 37, Mr. BzeetyD = 43 together 12/02 married 9/08
TTC #1 since 1/10
DX: Unexplained/MFI issues
Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid , more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked, 2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
RPL testing all normal

Moving on to IVF.

Our lil' lost sparks:
5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2012
4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2012

IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy

Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!! FET 5/31/13



"I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."

Everybody is welcome!!!  
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12-21-2012 at 9:58 AM
PrettyAcco...
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Hey Sweetie - Glad you popped in to say hi. I am glad you are going to get to see your favorite aunt and uncle on your trip and I hope the whole trip goes well.

I hear you about the emotions part and I think it is perfectly normal. IF is such a hard struggle with so many obstacles that one just gets so overwhelmed. We are all pulling for you and wanting nothing but the best for you!
TTC 1/2010 DH Dx - Azoospermia 2/2011
Hysteroscopy 3/2011 2 Polyps removed 4/2011
DH on Clomid / Arimidex to address hormonal issues - Sperm found July 2011!
IVF #1 September 2011 - ER 9/8/2011- 8R, 5M - icsi - 1 made it to transfer - BFFN :-(
IVF #2 Lucky November 2011 - ER 11/25/2011 - 15 eggs!, 13 mature, 10 fertilized with isci - 7 made it to transfer! Transferred 1 - 8 cell and 2 - 7 cell. BFP!!!!
1st U/S - Twins! 2nd U/S - 3 heartbeats!!! - HOLY COW!!!
Prayers for our take home babies!
2 babies born on 3/27/12 and lost. Last baby born on 3/29/12 and lost at 20 weeks.
My angels grew wings shortly after birth.
Ahava Raisel, Matisyahu Nissim & Zev Chaim - Mommy and Daddy will always love you.
IVF #3 July 2012 - ER 7/17/2012 - 10 R. 5 F. 4 made it to ET
Transferred 2 on 7/20/2012 no snow babies :-(
Beta on 7/31/2012 = BFMFN
A miracle gift expected to come to us through adoption around 9/2012
Baby girl adopted - Birth Mother changed her mind and took the baby back
IVF #4 October 2012 - New RE. Doing PGD Testing. 8 R, 7F, 2 made it to 5 day blast for PDG testing. Both Normal (Thank you G-d!!!) 1 boy and 1 girl
transferred one beautiful 5day blast (girl)
Please G-d the almighty one - let this be our take home baby!
Beta #1 158, Beta #2 318, 1 Absolutely magnificent HB at 175! Thank you G-d!!!
AMA. PAIF & SAIF always welcome - I need all the prayers I can get!
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12-21-2012 at 11:52 AM
liz4paws
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Hi, I am crossing my fingers for your CCRM trip. It sounds like you are on a wild rollercoaster ride of emotions, and I'm sure thats incredibly tough. I hope you are able to find the peace that you need moving forward. Big hugs!
Me (31) DH (35) - Finding our path to baby #1
Me: POF/DOR - AMH <0.16, heterozygous c677t MTHFR
DH: Severe MFI
12/2/11 - IUI #1- BFN
8/1/12 - IVF #1 - Zero response from max stims (600iu intramuscularly)
My ovaries seem to be just for decoration

12/6/12 - Adopted five embryos that had been frozen for over ten years!
2/11/13 - Thawed four, sadly two didn't survive. Transferred two beautiful blasts.

2/16/13 - First BFP of my life!
3/27/13 - No heartbeat at 9w0d. D&C the following day.

4/23/13 - Matched to adopt five new embryos!

My embryo adoption blog: Wishing on a Snowflake

Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

 
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12-21-2012 at 12:21 PM
nawlinsgrl
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liz4paws:
Hi, I am crossing my fingers for your CCRM trip. It sounds like you are on a wild rollercoaster ride of emotions, and I'm sure thats incredibly tough. I hope you are able to find the peace that you need moving forward. Big hugs!

I don't think I could have said it better myself, so I won't try.  Just wishing the very best for you, and sending lots of T&Ps your way!

10/10: Married DH; 5/11: Dx: Blocked Fallopian Tube; 7/11: D&C/Hysteroscopy to remove polyp
IVF #1: 9/11: ER: 12R, 11M, 10F, No Frosties; 5dt: 2 blasts, 1 morula; DD born 6/3/12
IVF #2: 11/12-12/12: ER: 20R, 20M, 16F, 4 Frosties; 5dt: 3 blasts, DS EDD: 8/23/13
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12-21-2012 at 11:11 PM
DoublePort...
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Huge ((hugs)). I miss you when you're not around, but completely understand the mercurial emotions and needing some time away. It's a lot to deal with and we're here for you anytime you need us! I hope the visit with your aunt and uncle is enjoyable and your work up goes well.
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Me: 29 ~ Stage IV Endo ~ AMH .38 ~ AFC 8
AMH .97 as of 4/2012!
Him: 27 ~ perfect swimmers
Laparotomy with partial oophorectomy 8/2009 to remove cysts/endo. Stopped BC 4/2010.
Multiple clomid rounds from 11/2010 to 6/2011. ~ All BFN
IUI w/clomid 7/2011. IUI w/clomid & injectables 11/2011 & 1/2012. ~ All BFN
Occasionally using acupuncture.
IVF #1:EPP 5/2012 ~ (4R, 3M, 2F w/ICSI). Both embies txfrd. ~ BFN
BCP to manage Endo from 10/2012 to 12/2012.
PAIF/SAIF always welcome!

If you're wondering about my avatar...it's a fried pickle chip shaped like a fetus! 
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12-25-2012 at 8:37 PM
Scoop77
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This process is so draining. I totally get taking a mental break from it every now and then (or even just taking a break from a small part of it, like TB). The mixed emotions, up and down constantly, I can also relate to. I stashed away my leftover meds the other day and while it felt really good, it was also sad. 

Thinking of you and hoping that CC.RM workup goes really well!


TTC #1 for about 3.5 years
ME: 37, PCO, immune issues?, teflon uterus (my added diagnosis)
HIM: 38, Perfect. (Showoff.)
Month before starting Clomid, spontaneous pregnancy. m/c at 7 weeks and D&C.
Four months of Clomid, one IUI, with Intralipid each cycle: BFNs all
IVF 1.0 July 2012 -- Lupron, bravelle, menopur, estrogen, progesterone supps, intralipid. 14 ER, 14 fertilized, 1 blast transferred, 2 on ice. BFN
FET 1.1 -- 10/2, transferred our 2 blasts. Lupron, PIO, estrogen, baby aspirin, prednisone. BFN.
IVF 2.0 December 2012 -- Bravelle, Menopur, Ganirelix, Prednisone, Metformin, estrogen, progesterone supps. 22 eggs retrieved on 12/14, 17 mature, 15 fertilized. OHSS anticipated so ET cancelled. 3 embryos frozen.
Broke up with old RE. Moving on to new dude. Maybe the change of scenery will be just the trick for our frosties. On BCPs for possible April FET.

P/SAIF welcome 
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