Today, I am doing fine :( which bums me out! I think I convinced myself I would have this little girl by Christmas - more of a want than logical :) Not due until 12/28. So everyday that goes by and I feel OK, it makes me sad. We are literally just waiting and being anxious and I fear not enjoying the down time and holiday.
Headed to the OB tomorrow AM for one last pre-holiday check in and then will go to my parents {1 hour away} for the day so our son can have Christmas with his grandparents and my siblings. And then Christmas Day we will play by ear. We can always go back to my parents but part of me wants to stay home and have Christmas just the three of us - last time!
I have now eaten eggplant parm {dinner last night, lunch today and dinner today} and have consumed more fresh pineapple than is normal! And lots of time with the hubby. And honestly, I don't think it has done a thing. So I may just sit back and let my body do this on its own. I am a VBAC hopeful so as the clock ticks, I get more anxious I will end up in the RCS boat again which I desperately fear. But I think I need to embrace "will come when ready" mentality!