Good luck to you :)... I have bad anxiety when I visit the RE. This is my guilty pleasure that works for me: I buy one new "trash" magazine a month, and arrive 20-30min early for my appointment to "indulge" in my magazine (sometimes a little Kardashian trash talk can be relaxing!!) :)..something other than the RE to look forward too!!
Wishing you the best! I hope you find the answers / plan you are looking for!