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01-22-2013 at 7:05 PM
chucktgirl
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Lost

My RE just called. It's never good news when the doctor himself calls you. I was waiting for instructions on my ET tomorrow morning. He said all embryos came back from PGS with severe abnormalities. Again. There is nothing to transfer. Worse, I asked him what's next? He said, "There is no next. Your egg quality is consistantly too poor. It is not worth doing this anymore." He knows that DE and adoption are out of the question. So, basically, you're saying I'm never going to have a baby? "I'm sorry."

Where do you go from there? There is no where. I've just been handed the sentence that I will never have a baby. How do you deal with that? No food will taste good. No amount of wine will help. Tears are a waste. I just flat out feel like a failure, and that I have no further purpose in life. I know that sounds drastic, but it is entirely accurate.

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TTC since Jan 2010 with OPKs. Me: 41, Hypothyroidism, hetero MTHFR C677T, hetero Factor V Leiden (no previous clots) Dx: DOR due to AMA. Rx: 100mg Levothyroxin, FaBB tab, Spring Valley Prenatal Vitamins, Vitamin D. Hubby: 34, Hyperthyroidism, Fragile X carrier, Great swimmers!
Natural PG 9/27/11; MC at 8wks. Used Cytotec to expel: 1/20/12 (unpleasant)
First RE visit: 8/8/12, Saline Sonogram: 8/28/12(4cm unknown mass in upper left of uterus) 2nd Saline Sonogram: 10/2/12 (mass disappeared!) IVF injection class: 10/11/12
IVF #1: 10/17/12 Baseline: FSH- 9.4, E2- 24, LH- 3.7, Progesterone- 0.3. 6 follicles in my right ovary & 9 in my left. Rx: 150 Bravelle & 150 Menopur SQ in AM. 10/21/12: Add Ganirelix SQ in PM. 10/26/12: hCG Trigger IM. ER 10/28/12: 13R, 7M, 6F. 5 Made it to PGS. ET 11/2/12: CANCELED. PGS: All 5 have "severe abnormalities." Devastated. Begged RE for back-to-back IVFs; Started Provera 11/2/12. AF said FU and came anyway, destroying any chance for a Dec IVF. Maxed out lifetime IF meds insurance. I can barely breathe, waiting to get through this process, hoping for my take-home-baby.
IVF #2: 1/7/13 Baseline: FSH- 8.8, 4 follicles in my right ovary & 6 in my left. Rx: 150 Bravelle & 150 Menopur SQ in PM. 1/11/13: Add Ganirelix SQ in AM. 1/16/13: hCG Trigger IM. ER 1/18/13: 9R, 5M, 5F. 2 Made it to PGS. ET 1/23/13: CANCELED. PGS: All embryos have "multiple severe abnormalities." RE recommends we stop trying and focus on living childless, due to the repeated extremely poor quality of my eggs. I don't even know what to do with that.
IVF #3- NEW RE! 100% OOP: 3/1/13 Baseline: FSH- 9.6, E2- 61, Progesterone- 0.94, 3 follicles in my right ovary & 4 in my left. Rx: 150 Bravelle & 150 Menopur SQ in PM. 3/7/13: Add Ganirelix SQ in AM. hCG Trigger 3/9/13 SQ. 3/11/13 ER: 6R, 2M, 2F. Day 3: one 8 cell, grade 0. 3/16/13 Five day ET: one early blast, grade Fair. 3/24/13 Started period a day before beta. BFN.
IVF #4 (FINAL) (Added acupuncture to this cycle.): 3/25/13 WTF & Baseline: FSH-11.8, E2- 56, Progesterone- 0.84 3/26/13 Start stims. 3/30/13 u/s: 5 follicles in my right ovary & 4 in my left. Rx: 225 Bravelle & 225 Menopur SQ in PM. 3/31/13 Add Ganirelix SQ in AM. hCG Trigger 4/3/13 SQ. 4/5/13 ER: 5R, 3M, 3F naturally. Day 3: two 8 cell, grade 0, one 8 cell, grade 2 (Scale 0-best to 3-worst). 4/10/13 Five day ET: two blastocysts (the 3rd stopped growing.) 4/18/13 Beta: 2.5 BFFN.
No DE or adoption for us, FIRM.
That’s it for us. I am beyond devastated and have no idea how to proceed from here. My life has been forever altered by this experience. Best wishes to all in their journeys! 
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01-22-2013 at 7:12 PM
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I"m so sorry...there's nothing anyone can say to make you feel better...I just hope that with time you are able to find happiness...and miracles do happen when you least expect them...Cliche, yes- but true none the less... **Hugs**
TTC since 11/11. 10 months natural= 10 BFN 8/12 First appt with RE 4 semen anaylsis later 1.9 million count, 21% motility and very poor morphology Me- bloodwork, 2 ultrasounds, HSG exam =I'm fine 3 months of testosterone treatments = 3 more BFN DH bkoodwork after 3 months treatment= no change RE says we can continue with hormone treatment for MIF, But says it could be year or more to see results that would even make us IUI candidates RE says we can try IUI but doesn't expect the results to be good based on severe MIF. 12/12 decide to move forward with IVF Started IVF Cycle #1 1/11/13 
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01-22-2013 at 7:16 PM
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There are no words to tell you how sorry I am. <<HUGS>>
Me - 35 DH - 37 SD - 10
Married 10/8/2011
Started TTC July 2011. Infertility workup July & August 2012.
DH - all clear. Me - Unicornuate Uterus discovered at HSG 8/16/12. Referred for IVF 8/28/12. Approved for IVF Warranty Program 10/2/12. Laparoscopy 11/1/12 - removed right rudamentary horn, both tubes, left ovarian cyst and endometriosis. Given all clear for pregnancy after 1/1/2013.
IVF cycle 1 starts 1/19/13!
12 eggs, 7 mature and all 7 fertilized - 2 Frosties!!
5 day SET 2/4/13 - Beta 2/13: 86 & 2/15: 186 BFP!!!!
EDD: October, 23, 2013
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01-22-2013 at 7:20 PM
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Amyou06:
I"m so sorry...there's nothing anyone can say to make you feel better...I just hope that with time you are able to find happiness...**Hugs**

This. I'm sorry you're in so much pain.

Married my wife 8/2007 *** TTC #1 since 7/2011
4 IUIs w/ midwives = 4 BFNs
5 IUIs w/ an RE = 5 BFNs
IVF October/November 2012
ER 11/1: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized!
ET 11/6: 1 blast transferred, 5 frozen
BFP 11/15! Beta #1: 104 Beta #2: 613 Beta #3: 3415
Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E 12/13
FET 1 cancelled
FET 1.1: ET 4/30: 1 blast transferred
BFP 5/7! Beta #1: 142 Beta #2: 730 Beta #3: 3100
*Everyone welcome*

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01-22-2013 at 7:27 PM
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I am so, so sorry.  
Me: 39. DH: 41. TTC since 2009.
FSH: 9.5 at highest. AMH (11/2011): 0.9. AFC: 10ish. HSG: Normal. SA: Normal.
July 2011 - Feb. 2012: 2 Clomid/TI cycles; 3 injectables/IUI cycles. Good response but BFNs.
Dec. 2011: Laparoscopy (clear) + hysteroscopy to remove uterine polyp.

April 2012: IVF #1: FSH 9.2, AFC 7-8. Antagonist protocol.
Started stims (300iu Gonal-F, 150iu Menopur) 3/28.
Added ganirelix 4/1. Trigger 4/5 (7 follies). ER 4/7: 7R, 0M, 0F. :-(

Nov. 2012: IVF #2: Long Lupron protocol.
Started Lupron 10/27. AFC 10+. Started stims (300iu Follistim, 150iu Menopur) 11/8.
Trigger 11/18 (7 follies). ER 11/20: 9R, 1M, 1F. 3dt of my one 6-cell embie on 11/23: BFN.

Dec. 2012: Hail Mary IUI cycle with leftover IVF meds: BFN.

Feb. 2013: IVF #3: Estrogen priming protocol.
Pre-AF: estro patch + ganirelix. AFC 8-10. Started stims (450 Follistim, 150 Menopur) 1/28.
Added ganirelix 2/4. Combined Lupron/HCG trigger 2/10 (6-ish follies).
ET 2/12: 6R, 1M, 1F w/rescue ICSI. My embie didn't make it. :-(

July 2013: DE IVF #1

PAIF/SAIF/PA35 welcome.
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01-22-2013 at 7:28 PM
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Amyou06:
I"m so sorry...there's nothing anyone can say to make you feel better...I just hope that with time you are able to find happiness...**Hugs**

This. I'm sorry you're in so much pain.

All of this. Prayers for you and your husband during this difficult time. 
TTC #1 since 12/2010 DH: MFI, cancer survivor Me: Resected septate uterus, lap treated mild endo, tubes open, ovulate on own. 3 Failed IUI's (2/2012, 4/2012, 6/2012) IVF #1 August 2012. BFP! Beta #1 56.7 Beta #2 150 One baby, one heartbeat on 9/20/12! no h/b @7w6d. dandc @8w0d Praying unceasingly for a miracle. PAIF/SAIF welcome Image and video hosting by TinyPic Image and video hosting by TinyPic Image and video hosting by TinyPic  
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01-22-2013 at 7:28 PM
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I'm so sorry you have go through this. There's nothing I can say to make it better. But you do still have purpose. You might not be able to see it right now, and it might not be what you planned, but you have worth. You are a strong woman with amazing things to offer. You've walked through fire survived. You are stronger than this. We're all here for you. Sending love your way.

What the catepillar calls the end, the master calls a butterfly.
TTC since August 2010
DH diagnosed with Azoospermia in January 2012
Vas reconstruction surgery in April 2012; unsuccessful
IVF with ICSI February 2013; single blastocyst 5dt
First beta March 1 is 147!!!

 
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01-22-2013 at 7:29 PM
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This is just devastating. I'm so terribly sorry
TTC # 1
Me: Hashimotos Disease, Elavated Prolactin, Uterine Polyps DH: SA good
12/11: HSG polyps found; 1/12: 1st apt with RE; 1/12: SHG: polyps confirmed, 2/12: diagnosed with Hashimotos, prescribed synthroid; Elevated prolactin, MRI clear, prescribed Dostinex; 2/12: hysteroscopy & D&C
3/2012 unmedicated cycle= BFN
4/2012 trigger + iui + endometrin=BFN
5/2012 Ovaries look "PCO-Like". Finally able to trigger on CD28. Trigger + TI + Endometrin = BFN
6/2012 Follistim + Trigger + iui = BFN
7/2012 Follistim + Trigger + iui = BFN
Unmedicated cycles 8/2012 & 9/2012=BFN
10/2012 IVF#1 = BFP 9dp3dt Beta=20, 14dp3dt Beta=9 C/P
IVF#2 Estrogen Priming Protocol beginning 1/14/2013
Beta 7dp5dt 117, Beta 9dp5dt 223, Beta 12dp5dt 583
1st Ultrasound 2/28 showed two yolk sacs!
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01-22-2013 at 7:32 PM
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I am so incredibly sorry and wish there was anything I could say to take at least some of the pain away. I am sure it is overwhelming. Do take some time for yourselves though to grieve. Take a day or two from work if you can. Lean on those closest to you when you are ready if anyone knows about your struggles. Or just curl up in bed, cry and scream. Whatever you do, don't feel guilty about it. This journey is unbelievably difficult and incredibly unfair. Sending huge huge hugs to you.
TTC since June 2011
DX: DH (30) severe MFI, severely low count & low motility
Me (32): all clear
Appt with Urologist 5/21/12: exam, ultrasound, bloodwork all normal.
Testicular Biopsy with TESE on 6/8/12. good sperm found! (left side only) froze sperm, failed thaw test :(
Orientation for IVF/ICSI on 6/13/12. Waiting for the green light following biopsy results...results show adequate sperm production both sides.
2nd SA 6/18/12: sample is "adequate for ICSI"
Plan: IVF/ICSI July 2012!
ER: 7/26/12. 15 eggs retrieved, all mature.
TESE/TESA/aspiration from epididymis, no motile sperm found :(
froze all eggs, the saga of praying for good sperm continues.
8/3/12: 2nd opinion from MFI uro on biopsy slides. Suspects "partial late maturation arrest."
Plan: more SAs, third biopsy/TESE with frozen back-up either from DH or DS.
SA 8/17/12: Zero sperm
SA 8/23/12: Zero sperm
9/26/12: SPERM FOUND! 15 eggs thawed, 12 survived and were ICSI'd, only 3 fertilized normally. Refrozen as embies and will thaw in Nov. Please survive and grow!
All 3 survived the thaw on 11/15/12!
FET 11/17/12: transferred 2, one 4B, one 4C. Beta 11/30:BFFN
moving on to DS
DIUI#1 2/18/13,50mg Clomid cd 3-7, Ovidrel trigger, Beta 3/4/13: BFN.
DIUI#2 3/19/13, 50 mg Clomid cd 3-7, Ovidrel trigger, Beta #1 (14dpiui) 4/2/13: BFP!!!! 150. Beta #2 4/4/13: 420 Beta #3 4/8/13: 2691. Beta #4 4/15/13: 15,086
1st u/s 4/8/13 shows one gestational sac
2nd u/s 4/15/13 shows yolk sac, fetal pole and early heartbeat
3rd u/s 4/25/13: measuring right on track. Heart rate 148 bpm
PAIF & SAIF always welcome
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01-22-2013 at 7:34 PM
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I am so incredibly sorry. I wish I had the words, but I will send healing thoughts your way.
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TTC with MFI and poor ovulation since 03/11
TCM and progesterone supplements
Early loss in 08/11
MFI Dx in 03/12 Low count, low motility, poor morphology and high levels of anti-sperm antibodies
Treated with supplements and TCM. Much lower on all factors. Count too low to test for anti-bodies
Met with new urologist 11/12
IUI #1 12/12: Letrozole + Gonal-F = BFN
DH started Clomid 01/13
New SA shows 33 million sperm! Thank you Clomid!!!
Discovered I am hypothyroid 04/13 waiting for specialist appointment
Hoping to try IUI again in July?
 
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01-22-2013 at 7:46 PM
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I am so sorry and wish I could say something to help. Many T&P being sent for you.
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Me: 29 ~ Stage IV Endo ~ AMH .38 ~ AFC 8
AMH .97 as of 4/2012!
Him: 27 ~ perfect swimmers
Laparotomy with partial oophorectomy 8/2009 to remove cysts/endo. Stopped BC 4/2010.
Multiple clomid rounds from 11/2010 to 6/2011. ~ All BFN
IUI w/clomid 7/2011. IUI w/clomid & injectables 11/2011 & 1/2012. ~ All BFN
Occasionally using acupuncture.
IVF #1:EPP 5/2012 ~ (4R, 3M, 2F w/ICSI). Both embies txfrd. ~ BFN
BCP to manage Endo from 10/2012 to 12/2012.
PAIF/SAIF always welcome!

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01-22-2013 at 7:48 PM
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I'm so so sorry.  Thoughts and prayers for you and DH to get through this. 
Married 2007 3 Clomid IUIs -- BFNs IVF #1 never made it to transfer On "egg health" cocktail DHEA/CoQ10/FRC/Pregnitude/Melatonin Starting IVF #2 for Feb 2013 Follistim/Menopur/Ganirelix Cancelled mid-cycle due to high P4 levels early on. OCPs again for IVF 2.5 mid-March. "You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it." -- Margaret Thatcher  
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01-22-2013 at 7:49 PM
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I am so very sorry, there are no words. You and your DH are in my thoughts. I'm thinking of you during this difficult time.
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TTC #1 since May 2011 | Me: 28, DH: 28 | DX: MFI
BFP #1 - April 15, 2012 (CP on April 17)
IUIs #1 - #3 (August - October '12) = BFFN
IVF #1.1 (Nov/Dec '12): Cancelled due to 18mm cyst - UGH
IVF #1.2 (Dec/Jan '12/'13): 5dt of 1 "perfect" 1AA blast on 1/26 (2 frosties) = BFP!!!
EDD October 14, 2013
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01-22-2013 at 7:49 PM
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There are no words. I'm devastated for you. Be kind to yourself. You are a person worthy of love and happiness.  I hope that it finds you sooner than later. ((Hugs))
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Me:29, DH:33
Started TTC June 2011
Cycles #1-10 = BFN
Cycle #11: 100 mg Clomid + TI =BFN
Referred to RE March 2012
HSG all clear, FSH = 13, Prolactin = 28, S/A = great
April 2012 MRI to check for brain tumor due to elevated Prolactin = clear
June 2012 Hysteroscopy to remove uterine polyps and partial septate
July 2012 IUI #1 7/7/12 = BFN
Aug 2012 IUI #2.1 Cancelled due to early/missed ovulation = BFN
September 2012 Forced break due to one huge cyst
October 2012 IUI #2.2 = BFN
November 2012 Begin BCPs for IVF #1
December 2012 IVF #1 = Delayed due to cyst. Start stims 12/22
January 2013 ER: 1/2, 14R, 10M, 9F
ET: 1/7 Transferred 1 "Perfect" blast! 4 frosties!
Beta #1: 99 BFP!/#2: 227/#3: 584/#4: 3,020.
1/30 One amazing heartbeat! 111 bpm
EDD: September 24, 2013
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01-22-2013 at 7:51 PM
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LuClo:
I'm so sorry you have go through this. There's nothing I can say to make it better. But you do still have purpose. You might not be able to see it right now, and it might not be what you planned, but you have worth. You are a strong woman with amazing things to offer. You've walked through fire survived. You are stronger than this. We're all here for you. Sending love your way.

What the catepillar calls the end, the master calls a butterfly.


This is beautiful. I agree with all of this. Sending humongous hugs.
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TTC #1 since May 2011 | Me: 28, DH: 28 | DX: MFI
BFP #1 - April 15, 2012 (CP on April 17)
IUIs #1 - #3 (August - October '12) = BFFN
IVF #1.1 (Nov/Dec '12): Cancelled due to 18mm cyst - UGH
IVF #1.2 (Dec/Jan '12/'13): 5dt of 1 "perfect" 1AA blast on 1/26 (2 frosties) = BFP!!!
EDD October 14, 2013
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01-22-2013 at 7:53 PM
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melkel559:
I am so incredibly sorry and wish there was anything I could say to take at least some of the pain away. I am sure it is overwhelming. Do take some time for yourselves though to grieve. Take a day or two from work if you can. Lean on those closest to you when you are ready if anyone knows about your struggles. Or just curl up in bed, cry and scream. Whatever you do, don't feel guilty about it. This journey is unbelievably difficult and incredibly unfair. Sending huge huge hugs to you.

Exactly this. I am so very sorry, hun. ((huge hug))  

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Me: 40, DH: 40 Married since 4/2009, TTC since 10/2010
FSH= 5.4, AFC= 11 Dx: Unexplained w/2% morphology
IUI 1-3: Clomid, Gonal F, Ovidrel + Prometrium = BFN
Acupuncture starting January 2012; IUI 4-5: Gonal F, Ovidrel + Prometrium = BFFN
IVF #1 (Antagonist) w/ICSI & AH: ER 8/7/12--7R/4M/4F; ET 2-8-cells + 1-7-cell embies= BFN
IVF #2 (MDLF)w/ICSI & AH: ER 11/26/12--23R/14M/6F ET 11/29 1 early morula + 2 8-cells; Beta 1 (15dp3dt)= 408; Beta 2 (17dp3dt)= 649 Beta scare :/ ; Beta 3 (19dp3dt)= 1485; 1st u/s 12/28/12= 1 sac with 2 HBs 113bpm EDD= 8/19/13; MIssed MC of identical twin boys D&C @ 8w3d on 1/10/13

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01-22-2013 at 7:59 PM
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Oh honey you are in no way a failure.  Please never think that way.  You have tried so hard, much harder than most people.  You are a strong woman who has been dealt an unbearable hand and it is not fair.  No one should have to endure what you are going through.  I wish that there were some words that I could say that could take away some of your pain.  Please know that you and your dh are in my thoughts and prayers. 
Married 12-12-04
TTC since 07
me-36 PCOS, Tubal Problems, and polyps removed 7-12
DH - 36 extremely handsome and no fertility problems
IUI 8-12 and 9-12 failed
IVF 12-21-2012 - 2 I think perfect no matter what the dr graded them (2B)embryos transferred Beta on 12-31-12 Positve - Beta is 21
Beta 2 1-2-13 - 31
Beta 3 1-4-13 - 53
Beta 4 1/9 - 212!
Ultrasound 1/10 - Nothing completely empty uterus Beta 1/14 - 743; Beta 1/17 - 1704 ultrasound shows nothing. Officially a miscarriage. 1/21 Beta 3900 Dr. says it ectopic. Ultrasound shows a miracle heartbeat right in the uterus where it belongs! Dr. says I can be cautiously optomistic!!! Hang in there baby!

 
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01-22-2013 at 8:02 PM
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I'm so so so sorry to hear this. After news like this be kind to yourself, its not your fault. IF bites a big one and no one should have to go through something like that.
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Me(31): Possibly Adult Growth Hormone Deficiency caused by a mutation in my pituitary genes called PIT-1--Also, Factor V Leiden
DH (31): Borderline low morph, but not considered a problem
"Baby dancing" with no protection or BCP since July 2009
IF testing started March 2011
Endocrinology related tests from October 2011-February 2012
March 2012--Clomid --No response-Straight to injects!
April & May 2012-- IUI#1 & #2 = BFN
July 2012- IVF#1 cancelled
September 2012-IVF#1.2--BFN
November 2012- IVF #2 --BFN
January 2013- IVF #3-- BFFN
February 2013--Found a new RE but first back to the Endocrinologist for more diagnostic testing
Absolutely no idea when we can cycle again...looking into DE as well if IVF#4 fails again
PAIF/SAIF encouraged...give me some hope!!
For detailed cycle info. see right side of blog... Kate's IF Blog
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01-22-2013 at 8:11 PM
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I have no words except I am so terribly sorry and will pray for you and your husband to find peace.
Married 9-10-11
Together 6 years before marriage
Me 26 DH 28
TTC since 9/2011
Dx endo 2007 Sx laparoscopy
End bcp 9/2011
Dx annovulatory, DOR, Low AMH
Hysteroscopy due to polyp 2-1-12
IUI#1-3 Cancelled due to low response
IUI#4 BFFN
IVF#1 8/30 Beta#1 256, 8/31 Beta#2 482 BFP!! M/C 5w3d
FET#1 Cancelled due to uterine fluid and thin lining
FET#1.2Cancelled due to abnormal bleeding
Hysteroscopy 12/28/12 All clear
FET#1.3 2/2013 Cancelled
FET #1.4 3/19 BFFN
Good Luck to All!!
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01-22-2013 at 8:14 PM
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LuClo:
I'm so sorry you have go through this. There's nothing I can say to make it better. But you do still have purpose. You might not be able to see it right now, and it might not be what you planned, but you have worth. You are a strong woman with amazing things to offer. You've walked through fire survived. You are stronger than this. We're all here for you. Sending love your way. What the catepillar calls the end, the master calls a butterfly.
This. I am so sorry. Hugs.
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01-22-2013 at 8:33 PM
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I am so sorry about your heartache. I know how lost you must feel. Praying that you somehow, someday find your miracle. My thoughts are with you. 

Me: 35, DH: 36, ttc: 3+ years, dx: unknown
10/11: after 2 years, saw a RE, FSH 5.4
11/11: BFP! (surprise after thyroid med & normal hsg),
12/11: missed m/c after 7 week u/s,
1/12: D&C,
6/12 IUI #1: clomid, 5 mature follicles, excellent sperm,= BFN,
7/12: IUI #2: clomid, 3 mature follicles, excellent sperm= BFN,
8/12: IUi #3: clomid, 5 follicles, = BFP!, C/P
10/12 IVF #1: FSH 5.4, estradiol AFC: 14, long Lupron 150/bravelle75,5R/5M/4F, all 4 made it to 5dt, 1 blast and 1 8 cell transferred. No frosties. BFN
IVF #2: AFC 21, MD lupron 12/25, 225bravelle/150men, 4R/4M/3F, 5dt of 1 blast BFN
IVF #3: natural start antagon, starting 3/30, ER 4/11, 12R,11M,10F
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I am so very sorry. Many T&Ps headed your way. (((Hugs)))
TTC since May 2010
Me - 32 DH - 31
IUI 1-3 BFN
Menopur + Ganirelix + Ovidrel + IUI = BFP!
Beta #1 (1/30) = 60 Beta #2 (2/02) = 287 (32 hour doubling time) Beta #3 (2/06) = 1374
Ectopic Pregnancy 2/10 @ 5w4d - Methotrexate 90mg :-(
IUI 5-7 BFN
IVF Consult Jan.2013
IVF #1 April/May 2013
ER 4/27/13 - 12R 7M 7F with ICSI only 1 frosty
ET 5/02/13 transferred 2 blasts - Beta #1 (5/13) - 73 Beta #2 (5/16) -33 It's Over :-(
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No words. Just :::::hugs::::::
I'm so sorry.
Me: 34, DH: 30 :: TCC since 2/11
SA: Perfect! CD3 b/w=Elevated Prolactin? HSG = Blocked Right Tube
April- Femara 2.5mg + Trigger + IUI = BFN
May- Femara 5mg = CX - No Response on Left = BFN
June- Femara 7.5mg + Trigger + IUI = BFN
August- Lap & Hysteroscopy = Blocked & Partially Blocked Tubes
Scar Tissue Removed, Left Tube Partially Open
September- Femara 5mg = CX - No Response on Left = BFN
October- 100mg Clomid + Trigger + TI = BFN
IVF # 1: Stims 11/30 ER 12/12/12! (10R, 8F, 2 Transferred, 6 Frosties!)
Beta #1- 176 c/p @ 4w4d
FET #1 February 26th
Lost 4 Frosties to Thaw, Transferred 2 = BFFN
IVF # 2 in May Stims Begin 5/10
ER 5/21


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01-22-2013 at 10:08 PM
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I know how you are feeling. I'm either one day or 9 days away from the same ending with no child. I have no advice but wanted to say I am thinking of you. We did not fail. Our bodies just failed us. But there has to be another path for us that we just don't know about yet. Just hang in there and take it one day at a time. 

TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:39 and BRCA1+, DH:45
DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality
5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
DE IVF#5 11/12 bad embryos= BFFN
FINAL DE IVF #6 1/13: cancelled as second donor backed out during stims
Was added last minute as 3rd recipient to new donor on 1/18; ET1/23/13
2/1/13 BFP for the first time ever; Beta hell for several weeks: miscarriage 7 wks
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JD2007:
I am so sorry about your heartache. I know how lost you must feel. Praying that you somehow, someday find your miracle. My thoughts are with you.nbsp;



This. And a big fat GODDaMMIT.
| Married since 2008 | DH and I: Both 30 | | Me: Endometriosis DH: Low Morph | | Planning IVF with PGD and PGS in 2013 | Freeze-All IVF #1: March 2013 ER 3/26. 29R, 12M, 11F. 4 frozen embryos. Freeze-All IVF#2: May 2013. Our PGD probe will be completed in early May. Hoping for healthy embryos and an FET this summer.



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01-22-2013 at 10:35 PM
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I am truly sorry you recieved such news.  I know I don't know your history and/or why adoption is out of the picture for you guys.  But would you ever consider using a donor egg program?  It could be something worth looking into.

Prayers to you that you find a way to get your miracle baby.
4/12/10 - Began TTC 8/2012 - IFV #1 - 18 follicles retrieved, 11 usable, 10 fertilized, 9 continued to grow, 2 tranferred, BFN :( 9/2012 - Treated for uterine infection 10/2012 - Uterine infection cleared up 11/12/12- Began IVF #2 12/19/12 - 2 embryos tranferred 12/24/12 - Tested Christmas Eve morning - BFP!!! :) 12/28/12 - Beta #1 - 193 12/31/12 - Beta #2 - 624 1/7/13 - Beta #3 - 7544 1/14/13 - Beta #4 - 31,067 1/16/13 - IT'S TWINS!!!! Two healthy heartbeats! Due Date - 9/6/13 Lilypie Pregnancy tickers  
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01-22-2013 at 10:36 PM
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I am so so sorry! :( wshing you all the best!
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Me (33)- unexplained MH (35)- MFI due to Vericocele. Straight to IVF w/ICSI 9/12, Antagonist = BFN c/p, poor quality blasts, tested sperm dna fragmentation. Results all good, yay! New RE for IVF #2- 1/13., Long Lupron. ER on 1/22 -10R, 9M, 9F. Transfer on hold due to overstimming. FET in Feb. 2 frozen blasts. Another BFN & another c/p. RPL testing all negative besides MTHFR gene, vericocle repair surgery 4/12/13-Bilateral Grade 3 Vericocele found & fixed, IVF #3 with PGS 4/13- 11R, 9M, 9F. Transferred 2 normal=BFN, 3 normal on ice Everyone Welcome!!!
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01-23-2013 at 1:22 AM
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This is devastating... I'm so sorry for you and your DH. 
Me 32 / DH 36
TTC since 08/2010
Me: Lap in 2007 due to pelvic pain: Dx mild endo
Lap in 2011: ovarian cyst and endo removal
2 Clomid cycles: good response but both BFN
borderline high anti-cardiolipin IgM Abs - now on baby aspirin
DH: S/A low all three - unexplained

IVF/ICSI #1: 06/2012 11R/11M/9F 2dt of one 4-cell embie - BFP,
beta hell, U/S hell, m/c and D&C at 9w6d
FET #1: 10/2012 3dt of one 10-cell embie - BFN
FET #2: 11/2012 2dt of one 2-cell embie - BFN
FET #3: 01/2013 3dt of one 6-cell embie - BFN
IVF/ICSI #2: 02/2013 14R/13M/7F 5dt of one blast 2/16 - BFP,
beta hell, m/c at 5w3d
FET #4: 04/2013 5dt of 2 morulas - BFN
FET #5: 05/2013


 
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01-23-2013 at 4:36 AM
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::sigh:: no words.  so sorry <3
TTC#1
Dx PCOS @ 16y.o
9/2011: unplanned natural conception and MC @ 6weeks (sac never seen)
12/2012: Cycle 1: TI & 2000MG Metformin & 100MG Clomid = CP
Functional Cyst - fixed with 2wks BCP
1/31/13: Cycle 2: IUI #1 & 2000MG Metformin, 100MG Clomid, HSG/Trigger, Provera 400mg 2DPIUI = MC @ 7w4d
Cycle 3: Lady In Waiting! Planning for IUI
PAIF/SAIF Welcome! You girls give me HOPE! <3
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I'm so sorry. I hope you can find some peace. Don't make any major life decisions yet, take some time to grieve and heal and see where life takes you next. *hugs*

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TTC since January, 2011 | Me: 39, DH: 38 |DX: DOR and Uterine Fibroids | Natural BFP#1 January 31, 2012 | Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d on May 11, 2012 | Three surgeries and 26 fibroids later. . . | Natural cycle = BFN | 2 medicated cycles = BFN | IUI#1 = BFN | IUI#2 = Cancelled due to poor response | IVF#1=BFP#2 EDD Oct. 29, 2013, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish | Natural cycle = BFP#3, Beta 1=1250, Beta 2=2230, EDD 12/21/13, Hello Izzy!|
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